i look at me
i think of him
and then i start to feel sick

his touch still lingers
his smell; still there
he let himself in
he didn't care

i wasn't a person
i was just another girl
i let it happen
watched him wreck my whole world

his fingerprints burned into my body
his DNA etched into my skin
a little carbon copy
laced with putrid sin

to dig deep with the razor
to slice; repeat and repeat
to press to hard to end my life
i'll finally settle for defeat

alcohol only does half the job
drugs just don't do the right trick
i don't want to make pretend
i just want to make amends
with this war i fight inside of me

to sand to close to the ledge
tie a rope around my neck
pills in hand; kerosene in a can
is this what i fucking planed?

Yeah I want to die
But I also want to live my life
There's this whole world out there
Just waiting for me
It doesn't know me
But it still cares
As long as i don't think about all the shit
maybe then i won't feel soo sick

Only today did i give it some thought
Only for today do i not want to die
So i'll keep moving and yeah i'll try
Just for today I'm going to live my life.